A wonderful Day

Today I am so thankful for all the blessings I have in my life. I have a wonderful husband whom I love and he loves me. We have a great son Michael who is the light of our lives, and we're both very excited and anxious for baby #2. Even though I don't fare well in the first trimester of pregnancy with all day morning sickness and being SOOO tired it's worth it. Only a few more weeks till the 2nd trimester and I start feeling normal again. I just try and remember that the awfulness doesn't last forever. Also I am so thankful for the many great friends we have in our lives. I had lunch today with one of my favorite mommys, Without here close by to me I would be lost and probably truly hate Tulsa. In the last year she has become an even better friend than I could have ever imagined. Now I'm going to take Michael for a walk and enjoy the beautiful weather while it lasts!

Drs visit

Today was doctors appointment and things were wonderful! I saw my sweet baby and saw it's wonderful heart beating. I have an official due date of Sept 24 with delivery about Sept 10. Dan is away on business so he wasn't able to share this joyous moment with me but I did get some pictures to bring home. Baby even gave me a little wave as if to say "hi Mom". Besides the ever feeling of morning sickness and just being tired I am on cloud 9 that today turned out so wonderful and baby is doing great. It truly is an amazing miracle that babies are born and I thank God for bringing this baby in our lives.

Tomorrow

Tonight I'm going to bed as a mother of two. My sweet darling Michael and his brother or sister who is currently snug and growing in ny womb. Tomorrow I have an ultrasound. Normally for most women this is an exciting, joyous moment in a pregnancy. A chance to see their little one and see how much they've grown. For me it seems more like an agonizing wait in which I always fear the worst. It was at a normal drs visit almost 2 years ago when I was also one of those eager women waiting to see how much my baby had grown only to find out my baby no longer had a beating heart and I would never be able to hold her or raise her as my husband and I had dreamed. I had no signs of trouble or anything to make me thinm things would turn out so awful that day. Now as I'm just a few days past 10 weeks the fear and worry is mounting all over again. As my belly has swollen so much that normal pants don't fit already I am more than attached and in love with this little life inside me. Tomorrow hopefully goes smooth and is a normal visit but I still hold the fear in my heart that the worst will come. But for tonight, I look at the sweet son I am able to hold in my arms and dream of the day I will also hold the baby who's quickly growing in my womb. Tonight I go to bed as a mother with two dear blessings in my life and I hope that tomorrow nothing will change that.